And today is... yesterday? again? DAMNIT!

Life.. is decent.

coming from me that means alot.



because otherwise life sucks. So how is a decent life? Well... take alot of shit and mix in one really, really incredible element, and you have...

hope.

Sara is my hope. I imagine there are some people out there who would just as soon i would fall to my death rather than be happy, and might be a bit upset that Sara is with me, but...

you can't please everyone.


I am happy. really. no really. stop looking at me funny. I really honestly feel happiness. Yeah me... of all people. doom and gloom, life sucks kid is happy. eh well i'm not so morose i suppose... but life is better now than before.


However christmas sucks. hardcore. not enough money to go around... and i have bills to pay, and debt to unincur. is unincur a word? i hope so. because i most definitely just used it like one.



I discussed quantum space time mechanics with some people at the diner. It was interesting... until nobody followed me. Well, mark did after suffcient explanation... the whole if-you-know-the-future-and-tell-me-about-it-and-i-change-my-mind-about-something-does-the-future-change thing. the answer is... no.

but you do.

actually, this event alone spawns billions upon billions of you.

billions and billions of joe.




you may stop crying and clean your pants now.




anyways, it goes something like this...


1. I know the future for whatever reason
2. I tell you what you do in it
3. out of spite, and to make this example longer than three steps, you chose to attempt to change your actions
4. you manage to change your actions
5. in the future i see a new event
6. i tell you about it
7. you alter the future
8. i see the change
9. i tell you
10. you alter it


here we see a problem, a loop. we would constantly be looping back to the point of revelation, where you learn of the future.

assuming there is only one timeline in the universe, we can only end the loop two ways:

1. I do not tell you about the future
2. You do not attempt-to/successfully change it

however, if there are multiverses...


1. I know the future for whatever reason
2. I tell you what you do in it
3. out of spite, and to make this example longer than three steps, you chose to attempt to change your actions
4. you manage to change your actions, and a version of you splits off to live that timeline
5. in the future i see a new event, before the split
6. i tell you about it
7. you alter the future
8. i see the change
9. i tell you
10. you alter it, and yet another split occours


or, in other words

I know that in ten minutes, you will say the word apple. I tell you this, and you say "well, i think i will say orange instead." Ten minutes pass, and you say orange. My past self then sees the future again, where you say orange ten minutes from now. My past self tells you this, to which you reply "Well, i think i will say pineapple instead." My past self sees this, and tells you.

Each time my past self sees the future, and new future spawns, while the old future continues to exisit on a seperate path. Apple, orange, and pineapple are all said and continue on to finish thier timelines. However, every time i see the future, i must create a new past to relate to you, the speaker.


I will write a full document on this (very well explained by scientists and theorists before i ever thought of it) theory. you will like it. trust me.


i gotta go eat some chicken nuggets.






oh, yeah, and...


FUCK.