This is an old friend of mine. She is gone now. To those who have any faith in me, to those who see any good in me, to those who hate and love me, and to those who trust me, read this.
I knew her for many years.
She was my closest friend. My first love.
Some people do not listen to me when i tell them i am dangerous. This is what became of myself and one other. Read it and learn something.
She is not out of line here. She knew me for nearly seven years. She knows what she is talking about.
: Your comments thing isn't working, so i'll just say what i have to say here...
: What's one more broken promise, eh? You told me you woulnd't put my name in your blog again - you knew the reasons why and you said you understood. But of course you would be too selfish to live up to that, so now you refuse to take it off.
: As for apologizing to me for the trouble caused by mentioning me in your posts, why bother? You know just as well as I do that you don't mean it. If you did you would have taken it down. But it has to sound good, right?
: After all, you're so very good with words - it’s just the doing what you say part that you have a problem with. . You were never able to get around to acting on things.
: “i can't feel right with myself any other way.” That’s a typical thing for you to say. I mean, you’ve already put me through months of hell, why stop thinking about yourself now? What point would there be in that?
: Don’t pride yourself in thinking that your little post has the ability to upset me. I’m not exactly sure what part you’re referring to. Is it about my name? Whatever. It just proves to me how much of a liar you are.
: Was it the part about your girlfriend, maybe? No, that doesn’t upset me either. I’ve seen you in this spot many times, and we both know how it’s going to turn out. I just feel sorry for her. I'm sure she deserves much better than you.
: . I just hope you don’t throw her aside in the end too.
: But don’t forget… when you hit rock bottom and you don’t know where to go… don’t expect to find me standing there for you to run to.
: (and this thing is now messing up)
: I am done with you treating me like dirt and taking me for granted. God help anyone who has the misfortune to cross your path.
: I never thought I'd say this, but you were very right in saying that you weren't good enough for me.
: Life suddenly looks beautiful again now that you don't exist to me anymore.
: Funny to think that I ever loved you.. don't worry though - I have my brain in working order again
Response from a friend of mine (yes i still have some)
: listen "anonymouse" - just GET OVER IT. you clearly are not "done" with joe, or else you would not be posting these pointless messages on his website. why in god's name would you even visit a page all about a person you hate, especially if you know that
: he is going to write things that you don't like? it's understandable that you don't want your name in here, but were all those posts really necessary?
: And for the record, this isn't Joe. Also for the record, I know I spelled anonymous wrong in the first post of mine.
And from me:
: ooooo, the drama. Thankyou, er, Mr Ly. But rachel is entitled to her opinion. I must be a liar if i mentioned her name, and i must be a terrible person because my every relationship does not work out.
: Also, she is pretty amazing for having posted all of that without being upset, it does after all sound very objective. Ah well... years of friendship boiled down to a few months and stomped out. She is perfectly welcome to leave a friend behind.
: I refuse to do it. I might be a jerk, but i won't ever walk away. I might not be perfect, far from it, and full of mistakes, but i won't walk away.
: i can't remember my moms birthday. so remembering something i mentioned about not posting her name (which was never outlined in my original censorship post) should be easy eh? Ah well, i've learned one thing over time...
: I have some friends who put up with me period. They have never walked away, regardless of my overt stupidity. These are Kyle Hoffmann and Susan Divitt. They have thier limits... and i may break them in time.
: however, i am greatful to have them stand behind me, like rachel did for so long. I don't expect anyone to stand in my wake. So, thanks for sticking around rach. Enough is enough. If you are really done... then please go.
: I'd rather not hear from you in this context. Unless it makes you happy to bash my friendships, and my integrity, and everything you know about me. Bash away. You have the power. You know me quite well. And you know how to make it sting. And it does sting.
: Especially after the last spoken words between you and i were "I love you". You win rachel. You got the best and worst of me. I'm depleted. Now please just leave me alone.
: Please.
Note to self: If rachel gets hit by a bus or is otherwise on the edge of death or suicide, visit her. The thrill of stabbing me might bring her back a bit.
Those we love render the deepest wounds.
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