ok ok, let me start this over again

Alright folks, its time for a good old fashioned joe post. The last series of posts has been all introspectivy and metaphorical and blah blah blah...

man i can hardly stand to read them myself. So, let me explain my stupid demeanor to the masses.

I'm nuts. I'm freakin insane. At this point, i dunno where i'm going or what i'm doing, and i'm just kinda maxin' and relaxin' and not giving too much a crap about anything.

Mostly, i'm unimpressed with myself as of late, and despite my attempts to return to the odd, eccentric guy i strive to be... i end up being...

(drum roll)

a dork.

haha, same as always. And such is life, is it not? I'm a dork. And you know what, i like it. I am a dork who write melodramatic posts that flap thier arms in the wind lamely, attempting to get some air. They flit and flat about, and in the end look kinda wet and sad and... melodramatic. So, i lieu of this, i will try and be a bit less creepy kid and a bit more dork.

I fit better into the dork's pants, i think.

Or maybe, just maybe, i'm once again in an uncertain state as brought on by the presence of another (gasp) interesting person. Alas, i second guess myself! I AM UNSURE SOMETIMES! IT KEEPS ME AWAKE WHEN I SHOULD BE BOUNCING AROUND MY DREAMSCAPE WITH AN AK-47 FIGHTING OFF THE DEMON SANTA CLONES FROM NORWAY!

Damnit.

But hey, and artist is an artist, and hence i write stuff like the last few posts. It really is how my brain thinks when switched on to art mode. It just is. i'm tainted! its the stupid stereotype in my brain! AUGH!

oh well.

A triphop life indeed... jesus...